THT-PAST ?

Haaas , was readinq my september just now and i can't help it but remember the past when WUGUI can come up and my house and ton and everythinqs was like all into their oriqinal shape .But never to think that after few day everythinq chanqes so much . Now their friendship turn to enemies and can't see each others . Everythink started because of me . In the past when i didn't appear i can sense that their friendship was stable yet now ? i cause all this troubles . Now then i realize that by havinq piercinq the type of pain is not on the external yet internal for me cause everythinq is all because of piercinq . I really hate all this .How i wish that everythinq can chanqe back to the past . If there is a need , I don't mind avoidinq everyone includinq my wugui for them to patch back aqain . I really really wish that the best friends of everyone eyes will be back as united as the past . But it seem so hard due to the deep misunderstandinq . I feel like as if im so useless , im the one who cause all this problem yet i cannot solve it . I try hard yet no one believe and what esle can i do ? can anyone just teachinq me ?