Boy

Dear diary , Tell me what should i do ?
i'm kinda in love with him for a long time .
Trying to get him off my mind but still ,
i'll take the initiative to talk to him and so on ..
My love for him are inexplicable and unconditionally ..
Mermories , are always the most cruel weapon ..
Tears will eventually fall down whenever i went to places that we been before ..
Boy , do you know how much these thing hurt ?
my wound are tearing apart and you're applying salt on it ..
Do you know how much tear i drop for you ?
Do you know cause of you
i did alot of stupid thing that cause me to become an imbecile ? ..
Althought i'm appear happy outside whenever i talk to you
but still ,i'm crying in my heart ..
You will never know how much pain i'm tolerating .
You're a devil on the outer area .
An angel in my heart .
If only you know ..........