Kinda wondering , why other girls in my age can enjoy their life so fully and so carefree
while i can't ...
Every time when i home it's just feel like I'm back to my troubles place ..
Shouting here and there , problem here and there ...
Seriously , there's a lot of thing i wanted , but i don't dare to ask anymore as i
know it's will cause a burden ...
Living with a mask everyday , is what I'm doing so often ...
I'm able to cheer others up by why not myself ?
Why am i being so different from other , we're of the same age yet
I'm living so differently ...
Trying real hard to help out , in the end ?
I failed ...
Regretted why in the past i didn't went to school and study properly .
And now ? i gotta spend additional two week in school just to get myself promoted .
Sometime i really do wonder , shall i just just gave up on my studies and went off to
work to decrease the burden of the family now or shall i continue to study and increase their
burden for now and repay them back in the future ...
Till now , my answer is still a blank ...
Brother tears drop the other day , follow by mine .
Realize that I'm being such a useless person all the while ...
So what if I'm working now ? I can't even earn enough for myself ...
I'm tired also , but what can i do ?
How i wish i can just bring back a few thousand of
cash to clear my house expenses one day .
Seeing family member face fill with troubles and sadness has make me feel more
like a failure ...
All i wish is a peaceful family with happiness not a family that wonder when will
the electricity be gone , when will the internet be gone , and when will the house be gone ...
Is that so hard ?
I know as compared to other I'm considered a lucky follow because i still know
where I can go back to ...
But I'm afraid of when this home of mine will be gone ...
Although every time i told other if there's a will , there's a way but
when is my way coming to find me ? .
How i wish i can go back to the past when I'm still a child who doesn't have to worry
about all this things ...
But still one word true from my heart ,
Pa , i never ever blame you for letting me go through all this , instead I'm grateful
because you raise me up while knowing that I'm not your own daughter ..
Thank you for letting me accompany you to go through this together ...
while i can't ...
Every time when i home it's just feel like I'm back to my troubles place ..
Shouting here and there , problem here and there ...
Seriously , there's a lot of thing i wanted , but i don't dare to ask anymore as i
know it's will cause a burden ...
Living with a mask everyday , is what I'm doing so often ...
I'm able to cheer others up by why not myself ?
Why am i being so different from other , we're of the same age yet
I'm living so differently ...
Trying real hard to help out , in the end ?
I failed ...
Regretted why in the past i didn't went to school and study properly .
And now ? i gotta spend additional two week in school just to get myself promoted .
Sometime i really do wonder , shall i just just gave up on my studies and went off to
work to decrease the burden of the family now or shall i continue to study and increase their
burden for now and repay them back in the future ...
Till now , my answer is still a blank ...
Brother tears drop the other day , follow by mine .
Realize that I'm being such a useless person all the while ...
So what if I'm working now ? I can't even earn enough for myself ...
I'm tired also , but what can i do ?
How i wish i can just bring back a few thousand of
cash to clear my house expenses one day .
Seeing family member face fill with troubles and sadness has make me feel more
like a failure ...
All i wish is a peaceful family with happiness not a family that wonder when will
the electricity be gone , when will the internet be gone , and when will the house be gone ...
Is that so hard ?
I know as compared to other I'm considered a lucky follow because i still know
where I can go back to ...
But I'm afraid of when this home of mine will be gone ...
Although every time i told other if there's a will , there's a way but
when is my way coming to find me ? .
How i wish i can go back to the past when I'm still a child who doesn't have to worry
about all this things ...
But still one word true from my heart ,
Pa , i never ever blame you for letting me go through all this , instead I'm grateful
because you raise me up while knowing that I'm not your own daughter ..
Thank you for letting me accompany you to go through this together ...
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